wow, am back blogging! :P past week, have either gone out and been too shagged to blog, or just lazy... ;)

firstly:

what a way to make a statement... hee, tt's to all the bad line calls. also in line is an "Oh no no no" shirt... hurhur! Serena is just hilarious... :D

and boy is babygirl powerful, a swipe at the chair and this happens! see, the racket is weak lor, tt's why mine broke too... :P

friday was fab!! we couldn't have had a nicer paper to end the week, thanks a lot Bio Department! :) went to queensway w yihan to search for his new racket... got it for quite cheap, and the racket has such wonderful packaging, its just so pretty. perfect for a image conscious person like so-and-so... ;) so poorthing though, spilt milo on his pants... n the pants are really waterproof lor, milo trickled down all the way to his socks!! :/ 2nd time someone has wet his pants in front of me, other person was nick. in fact, his was worse, squeezed chilli over his crotch and looked like he has just had his period... LOL! after tt, rushed down to suntec to have buffet lunch w hs, aaron, claire and wk! was quite nice, ate quite a bit, but i wanted to eat more actually... but was just afraid i'd be too bloated and sleepy to enjoy the rest of my day, so i stopped. aaron was so lousy lor, ate so little! think claire and hs ate more! tsk! :P and so amusing, we were stacking plates over, and crushing the undereaten food... so wasteful! then went to marina to pool and take neoprint! (btw, who has it? i want a copy!) pooled for a while only, then had to rush off for tennis... was amused w how lousy i had become at pooling... missed the simplest shots at the most inopportune moments...! hur! tennis was disrupted by intermittent showers... but had fun playing monopoly which i won! it was so exciting... cm forced me into a bad trade, but thanks to my whore luck at dice throwing, i landed on free parking and got lotsa money, and managed to build up my property without landing on other pple much... and when i bankrupted yh and built up a nice long stretch of hotels, the rest was history... :D was such an empathic victory with my wades of $500 notes... hurhur!

next day, went to try rollerblading! was quite fun... needed help at the beginning cuz i couldn't really move without feeling like i'd slip... haha. but it got much better, could skate small distances after an hour... :) maybe i'd learn more one day... :P after tt, paid a visit to zp! got to pool again, but wasn't really feeling like it cuz i was v tired, so just anyhow whacked... sometimes, it actually works well! says a lot abt my 'aiming' huh? ;) his mum was so nice! gave us lotsa foods... yummy! so greedy hor? *embarrassed*

sunday was also v good... played tennis w WTA World pple... and yeah, after a long layoff from matches, i guess i did ok... 1st match was a disaster... made 5 doublefaultss or thereabouts in 26 pts? and only 13 pts were my serves... wth was tt all abt?! ridiculous... threw in DFs every set pt i had in the beginning... was lucky to scrape thru 14-12 7-4... second match was easier, but my opponent was obviously under the weather, not running much... finals was... hmmm, evidence of me not being match tough. 7-3 6-3, with three match pts, and i blew it!! lost like 7-3 7-9 0-7... lost the last 9 pts lor... and wasted 4 match pts... really need to work on match toughness cuz it was obvious i should've won... bah. well, nvm the lost... the programme after tt was great! went tampines mall to grab a bite (yeah, i was the only hungry one apparently)... then went to this place called settlers! was v fun leh... must bring some of ya'll one day! :P its this nice cafe where u get to choose from hundreds of board games and play while eating! its quite cheap per hour, so i feel its v worth it... :) played a game called fruit card, which well, its test of reaction speed, plus counting ability. almost died at the beginning, but ended up top 2! :D then, played risk, which well, i kinda won... ;) i was just being nice, so i won... pple who love to kill each other dun usually do too well in risk... haha! then it was taboo, which somehow i was being lousy at... :/ following which, we had this game called dragon delta... it was so fun, v strategic game. cards determine what moves u make, and u put five down at the start of each turn, n no changing of the order is allowed. so u gotta try to predict what other pple do as well as achieve yr own goal as well... was so jian lor those pple! there was a turn where all of them blocked all my moves... so i could do nothing?! hur... but it was fun to sit there and figure out what to do... well i won too! :D then there was another game, which was hilarious... aiya, lazy to describe, but well, it involves lotsa crapping, so i can foresee many pple liking it... ;)

monday was back to earth... did 1 miserable chem S paper... tuesday i slacked a lot... and wed, i tried to mug a whole uni organic textbook. so not smart... i guess i realise why pple actually spend 4 years in uni... ;) haha! chem S today was hilarious... when i looked at first 2 qns, i was like... err, can i even score 1 mark?! ;) how aptly titled the paper is... "Paper 0"! hurhur... quite amusing an experience... but so sad, i think i could've done more la... just too blurred during the paper liao...

yay, one last paper! can't wait... :)

it feels like deja vu...

hmmph.

...

how i wish days could always be as happy as today was... :)

sure, physics sucked and i did sooo badly, but heck it! :P

i gotta do a little of everything i liked doing today... its times like these i long for... after exam, gotta spend time w friends, watching 'Man on Fire'... though i totally thought the movie was too draggy, others thought it was essential in building up the emotions. each to his own i guess... but not too bad, at least there was plot! :P seems like both 'The Terminal' and this movie are both based on true stories. quite shocking frankly... ;) lunch was quite nice, ate at Ponderosa's... except my fried chicken looked like KFC... hur! (nick, better remember to take e banana i stuff in yr bag out!)

after tt, gotta do some shopping, bought some nice tennis outfit at last... :) its my first time buying adidas, as opposed to reebok. i just couldn't bring myself to buy the roddick shirt, despite the fact aaron likes it... lol! so loud and ugly... :/ well, kinda broke now... so looks like no buffet liao hor? ;) was so happy to get to go to tampines after going orchard so often... i miss it lor! i used to go there so often when i was younger... it felt really nice... :P

then got home and actually got to spend some time w my family... watching TV together. yes wow u say... but well, better than nothing. seldom happens on weekdays k... :)

yeah, and i got to play some tennis...!!! was hitting the ball quite well, then lost concentration and started spraying... and something so paiseh happened lor. my stupid watch stopped working, then these 2 pple stepped into the court, and i though, 20mins early?! so ridiculous, and told them time's not up yet. and i was quite rude... n the guy was like, dun worry, not taking the courts now in an even more disgusting manner. well, turns out he came back short while later and said it was 9 rudely... and i was gonna argue, and realised my watch hadn't moved. i was quite... ... ;)

after tt, just sat at the benches, looking up at the clear nite skies. its so quiet and dark at my condo, its just so soothing and relaxing. the sky was so beautiful... the moon, stars and even the ocassionaly plane tt streaked across the sky... i just wish i could do this every night... i'm so gonna build glass roof with a reclining couch under it lor when i build my mansion... ;) then there was this cat which went around, following...! refused to go away, kept climbing onto the bench, and even climbed on me, dirtying my shirt w its paws! ah wells, it was nice when it nudged itself against me... i love cats! :)

just been such a kind day for me... i wish it wun end quite so soon... :P

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i'm removing this post... its causing undue worries and misunderstandings... I'm fine.. really.

n... u know dear, i told u b4 it wasn't a mistake... it still isn't... n thanks for being so nice still... :)
n not 100% luck tt u've over there... :) luck can only take u so far, and u've come a long long way... jia you!

days like tt just make me feel like destroying everything I've ever built up, and crawling under a blanket cuz i'm just so drained and freaking empty...

arghhh... i feel like typing a lot more... but it would just be inappropriate and too difficult to express. bah.

i've been a bad boy... :/ hurhur... just haven't been doing too much work or practising much... past few days during exams have been on the phone quite a lot, watching too many TV programmes! lol... just hope i didn't do too badly for my papers... ;) oh well, i've done what i did, and i can't say tt i've too many regrets... :P

friday and sat were great... friday i gotta play tennis, w my Tour Diablo racket... its a joy to play w, absolutely fabulous! :) its so great off the ground, providing a heap load of spin! hmmm... played on saturday as well, didn't play v well i thought... missed too many shots, but i guess i'm still in the adaption state. its been quite amazing tt i've been able to switch from head heavy to head light in the first place! hurhur... :) watched The Terminal yesterday as well... I thought its quite a nice movie (but then again, I've low standards w regards to movies sometimes...)... Just been having lazy days recently... haha, and mooncakes are making me fat!! so many things to eat... yummy! n it doesn't help tt someone actually commented tt i've fat thighs... *rolleyes*

oh anyway, i bought Nelly's album 'Suit'... well, he has 2 albums out at the same time... wow, what a way to get pple to buy more. arghhh... but i've only bought one cuz its ex to buy both... so if anyone wants to buy 'Sweat', we could exhange and RIP it man! :P anyhow, i like the album quite a lot... better than Usher's IMO... just had a thought... I wanna learn how to speak and act GHETTO! haha... it'd be fun... ;)

arghhh... i feel like... being violent... :/ i seem calm on the exterior, but i feel like a dormant volcano ready to blow up any moment. its like, the calm before a storm... hope it blows over by itself b4 i explode at someone... :/

was totally shitty today. was doing the chem paper, it was generally quite good, until some giant wasp or hornet things, which was larger than my thumb decided to land on me. i didn't know there was a bug on me, until Alfred Chan came up to me and said, "Xin Quan, stand up slowly and follow me to the back of the hall." I was puzzled but obliged. Then Edwin Lim took a large envelope and brushed something off my back and i saw this huge black disgusting hornet on the ground. arghh... i went back to do the paper but was sooo flustered and distracted. its like i would have this feeling there was another hornet on me or sth... :( now i know why at first, i had this feeling someone was tapping me on the back... the @#*(# hornet...!!

add tt to the fact i didn't practise thermodynamics, and chose to the do the stupid question on Born Haber Cycle instead of kinetics, i think i killed myself for this paper... damn, and it all started so well... but its really my fault for not focusing after tt, and well, not practising thermodynamics lar... gee, i'm just so annoyed tt i can't do well for chem now. was hoping tt i'd finally be able to do what i've not been able to do the past few common tests and promos...

been quite a nice week so far... hols are always nice, esp when u've got the US Open showing...

for those who've not been too busy mugging, and actually been looking at the news, i guess u must've heard abt the horrid linecalls Serena got in her QF match against Jennifer... well, she had 3 bad calls in the final game, and 1 outrageous call in the first game of the final set... the first call had so much impact because Serena just completely lost it after tt overrule by the umpire. totally understandable cuz the ball didn't even touch the line, yet was called out?!!! the slut umpire's name is called Mariana Alyes, and she's so infamous tt she's made the annoying list... ;) u can vote for her here: http://www.amiannoying.com/(b3lvn455ajlje5iabytsvnmb)/view.aspx?id=12449&collection=-1 :P

went to watch Stepford Wives on tuesday... n i thought it was pretty good lor, quite funny and somewhat thought provoking... (i.e. what is a 'perfect relationship'), the only problem i guess is tt they unveil one twist way too early... should've kept up the suspense, then the movie will be v good... ;)

ok, i'm convinced tt i'm quite screwed for prelims... mugging and snail's pace and not being terribly focused... :/ gd luck to me, k la, to everyone else too! :) :P

actually, now tt i think of it, i feel quite relieved after i managed to 'settle' somethings today... and of course just thankful for everything tt's been happening recently... :)

just in a really pensive mood, where every little thing evokes a whole plethora of emotions and random thoughts... well, maybe not completely random. days like this are so bad, cuz i just can't concentrate at all on anything... and what's worse is tt it just descends into a whirlwind of depressed and paranoid thoughts somehow... :(

what i just watched on tv doesn't help either... hurhur...

feel so retarded some time... template got deleted again while i was trying to change the song on the blog (which some of u can't hear cuz its in WMA format)... well, its not my fault it got deleted, but i guess i feel idiotic for not saving an updated version of it... lesson learnt after getting burnt twice... ;)

anyways, i was trying to put and Usher song featuring Alicia Keys - My Boo... not tt this song has v special lyrics or what... but it just sounds v good... well produced song... :) and it features to of my fav RnB singers!! yup, i went on a song d/ling rampage today... quite fun to get new songs...

just been v happy nowadays... feels gd! :) my slp patterns are highly strange now adays... slping at 4am++ n waking at 11-12, its just... not good... ;) but well, i wanna watch the US Open, so price to pay i guess? hur... anyways, strange match on TV yesterday... Zvonareva playing Dementieva, and though Zvonareva was playing so well, and up a set, she went berserk after being down 0-2 in the second set, and started whacking her head with the frame of her racket?!! and then her thighs and toes in subsequent points... and eventually, she burst out in tears at various points of the match. also saw her sreaming stuff i dun understand, prolly russian. so strange... she had the match in her hands, dunno what's wrong w her... :P

played tennis in the rain yesterday... quite fun still... but i really need a racket!! :@ its really great to meet other pple as passionate abt something tt u're so interested in... :)

watch vee play this morning against a fiesty young indian girl from princeton to start my day... :) haha, no wonder they say tennis players are smart... :P (supposed to be 3rd smartest, smartest being snooker players)

then after a long wait, had bio pract... which generally went ok, except my graph was not the right shape again. sighs, i never get the right values huh? lol... curve become straight line and straight line becomes curve!! bah... then, i had some question, and asked the teacher... then she read out the question to me and said, "does tt help?" LOL! like i can't read the question myself... :/ then arghhh... turns out i read some other questions wrongly too, and had to erase all the millions of cells i drew and redraw... :( amazed i still managed to finish my pract! haha! oh during our lengthy quarantine period, had so much fun discussing our post grad nite activities... hmmm, lotsa our classmates will be coming after grad nite, but not for grad nite... says something huh? ;) :P

after pract... rushed down to center point to get demo racket... bah... its the N6, and somehow i can't use it. it fits yh's playing style sooo well though. works wonder w him... :) cm used his 1 handed BH during warmup and shanked so many balls, irritating me n yh... grrr... slut! :@

anyway, play doubles... and it was quite exciting... :D yuan and cm were leading most of the time, up a break twice, 4-2 and 6-5. but....

yh/xq bt yuan/cm 7-6(2)

yay! so happy we pulled it off despite the desperate junking at 5-4 up causing us to lose the next 2 games... was really tiring though... some points were quite exhausting and long! :)

after tt, went up and had a really good ab workout man! laughed to death with all the silly jokes and insults we were having... its always so great to have u guys around! :) when we were playing cranium, it was so hilarious to see yuan try to imitate a toaster...! silent clues u see... i should've filmed tt down... i was really breathless! in fact, i feel like laughing now tt i think of it again... LOL!! and errr... some of the other acting and humming things were just... stomach splitting man... :P oh n cuz i can roll purple so well (its 1 of 9 faces), they decided to make a rule tt i've to roll twice, and get the lousier color... and surprise, at the crucial stage, i rolled purple twice in a roll! take that! :P i'm good at rolling die! :P

hehe... so outrageously cool! tt's y i like Serena :P

i've been inexplicably tired these few days regardless the amount of sleep i clock. its just silly tt i can't sit down for even half an hour to concentrate on getting into my brain. arghhh... :(

yesterday, after watching serena play her match in the morning, i went to sch, and wow, the programme for teacher's day was so short, it was over by the time i arrived at abt 915? lol... passed the presents to the teachers w some of the other classmates around... Mr Lim was like, "No i'm not wearing this!" after seeing the red boxers... haha... he hasn't seen the thong yet... ;) jeanne tan was so delighted w her avocado milkshake, and i was sceptical abt its taste. she then tried to offer me some, saying, "Maybe u'll get hooked on it too"... lol.

after tt, was really looking forward to going to centre pt to get some rackets for demo... but it totally sucked tt all the rackets tt i wanted to demo were on loan. had lunch three times tt day... :P but i didn't quite eat a lot each time though... :P

went to bedok for a 1h hitting session w ra n alwyn... i totally sucked. lol... was just not able to control the ball at all... which is excatly why i need my racket replaced, or i need to look for a new one. was highly frustrated tt i was just spraying balls all over the place... hope this improves... :/

btw, serena really went on court in her denim skirt and black boots... and boy did tt outfit generate so much buzz....! serean's surely of star status now... :P